I suck like highschool

From what I've read,
Jung felt that life was like a spiral- we constantly return to what appears to be the same place, but we've really just progressed (!) about the circling 'line' of existence.

I feel that now: I suck like I did in high school. And elementary school. And college. I mean, more than just... I'm bombarded again with troubles of self-identity and worth, dependence and independence.Sucking off the teat of the world, abusing my privileges. Only people like S. would have the balls to call me out on this. Anyone else is too polite or secretly agreeing with my agenda.

So S. did. Called me out on my shit. awesome. I guess its obvious since I'm an odd hipster girl whose parents spoil her with consumerist gack while vacay-ing in LV. gross. I mean, great, if thats my goal, but it. is . not. I want the opposites. Dirty dogs n guns.

These are totally self-depreciating statements and probs a real downer to read but its late, I feel I've been up for days, its super windy out and I have had a rough night